Off Again . . . . . On Again

This weekend was Little Miss Sassy's 2nd birthday and we tried to make the most of it.  We went out to lunch at a local pizza/play place for the kids and then had cake and ice cream after dinner.  She was hilarious because I gave her her presents in the morning, which consisted of dress up clothes.  Every time something new was shown to her the old outfit came off and the new one would come on or at least part of it.  At one point she had a princess hat, a superhero eye mask, butterfly wings, and a ballet skirt on all at the same time.  (I'll post pictures later.) 

Also on  Friday, I went to the doctor since my Metformin prescription was up and after a discussion regarding changes I've made and where I was at currently, she decided to take me off the medication!  She wants me to be off for six months and then we will re-do the 4 hour glucose test to check my sugar levels to see if the Insulin Resistance has been reversed or not.  The bad thing is that because I knew I was off, I went CARB CRAZY!!!  I won't even tell you how much of cake and ice cream I ate.  It's too embarrassing.  Let's just say the cake and ice cream are gone.  (See what I mean by me being an addict and can't have this kind of junk in the house?)

So last night I couldn't sleep and had a looooooong chat with myself regarding what was going on, how far I have gone, and just where exactly I wanted my life to go in the future.  Bottom line?  I have a lot of things I need to change up and get myself back on track physically, spiritually, and most definitely mentally.  Now if I can just follow through with it all.

At least I started on the physical this morning.  I restarted P90X3, which I was in the middle of before surgery.  Of course, I had to modify the ab stuff but the rest I did full out.  As sick as this sounds, it really felt great to be back at it pushing myself and knowing I was working towards my goals and getting my body back in shape.  I had forgotten that endorphin push that I have been so severely lacking!  It also helped me get back in the mindset of being a better me and taking the steps necessary to get back on track.

Anyway, that is all for now.  I just finished working out and need to get going before the monkeys awaken and my "me" time is gone until the go to bed tonight.  Oh, the life of a mom to young kids.  I love it, but have to admit I wish there was someone reliable and understanding that could take the kids for an hour a two at least one day a week just to be able to recharge my batteries and regroup.  Possible even reconnect with my husband since we only seem to pass each other as we switch which kid needs attending to when we are both in the house at the same time.  Oh well.  We will have to the house to ourselves soon enough and this extremely important and vital time in the development of our kids will have passed.