Please excuse the poor lighting and blurriness. It's really late and I am really tired, but you get the general idea. The rose is created with a pearl metallic powder that you brush over a sticky substance and gives it a metallic look. The really cool thing is that as you turn it around in the sunlight it changes colors. I'm just glad to be done.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
New Card
I've decided that I like structure. Consequently, when I was assigned a "blank" themed card, I have to admit I struggled. You would think it would be the exact opposite since you could do absolutely anything. However, I wanted to try something new and plus if you could see some of the other cards, you could understand why I stress and struggle to put some of these together. For better or worse, this is what I came up with for this month:
Please excuse the poor lighting and blurriness. It's really late and I am really tired, but you get the general idea. The rose is created with a pearl metallic powder that you brush over a sticky substance and gives it a metallic look. The really cool thing is that as you turn it around in the sunlight it changes colors. I'm just glad to be done.
Please excuse the poor lighting and blurriness. It's really late and I am really tired, but you get the general idea. The rose is created with a pearl metallic powder that you brush over a sticky substance and gives it a metallic look. The really cool thing is that as you turn it around in the sunlight it changes colors. I'm just glad to be done.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
And Speaking of Infertility . . .
I'm taking Femara and Clomid at the same time this month. Heaven help us all! (My husband may end up in a hotel for a week.) Say a little prayer that we all make it!
Just Had To . . . .
I just had to bust this myth as well:
Myth: If you already have one child, you know you are fertile and will have no problems conceiving again.
Oh, how I wish this was true!
Oh, how I wish I never had to see a negative pregnancy test again when I would give anything for those two little lines.
Oh, how I wish that I did not feel that every month I was just throwing money in the trash, wasted on unsuccessful fertility treatments, without any successful results.
Oh, how I wish I did not see the dream of having a biological sibling for my son slowly fade away.
Oh, how I wish I could have more dignity and privacy as I go through this struggle. Instead my doctor, her two nurses, her physician assistant, the ultrasound tech, the receptionist, the pharmacist, my son’s babysitter, my husband’s employer, etc. all know what day I am on in my cycle due to the very specific dates various treatments/medications have to occur. (How many “fertile” women get to say the same?)
Oh, how I wish that instead of contemplating if I should sell or give away our nursery furniture, I was preparing it for a new owner.
Oh, how I wish that I too could join in so many other women’s joyous announcement of an upcoming birth.
Oh, how I wish my husband could understand saying, “Let’s try one more time,” can lead to such anxiety and frustration, especially when you know that only you are the reason there is an issue.
Oh, how I wish there was not a limit as to what types of treatments can be done or there would be a better way of having a higher success rate for a treatment.
Oh, how I wish that the nausea, mood swings, headaches, body aches, and insomnia, or excessive exhaustion were due to a pregnancy and not to incessant medications and treatments that seem to lead to nowhere.
Oh, how I wish I the money we are spending monthly could be spent towards setting up a nursery, buying clothes for a new little one, etc. instead of medical bills that are not producing positive results.
Oh, how I wish this myth was true!
To learn more about Infertility and how to help those dealing with this condition, please visit: http://www.resolve.org/infertility101
Also to learn more about why I am writing such posts, please visit http://www.resolve.org/takecharge to see what measures are being taken to help educate people regarding this disease during National Infertility Awareness Week. (And yes, it is classified as a disease.)
Myth: If you already have one child, you know you are fertile and will have no problems conceiving again.
Oh, how I wish this was true!
Oh, how I wish I never had to see a negative pregnancy test again when I would give anything for those two little lines.
Oh, how I wish that I did not feel that every month I was just throwing money in the trash, wasted on unsuccessful fertility treatments, without any successful results.
Oh, how I wish I did not see the dream of having a biological sibling for my son slowly fade away.
Oh, how I wish I could have more dignity and privacy as I go through this struggle. Instead my doctor, her two nurses, her physician assistant, the ultrasound tech, the receptionist, the pharmacist, my son’s babysitter, my husband’s employer, etc. all know what day I am on in my cycle due to the very specific dates various treatments/medications have to occur. (How many “fertile” women get to say the same?)
Oh, how I wish that instead of contemplating if I should sell or give away our nursery furniture, I was preparing it for a new owner.
Oh, how I wish that I too could join in so many other women’s joyous announcement of an upcoming birth.
Oh, how I wish my husband could understand saying, “Let’s try one more time,” can lead to such anxiety and frustration, especially when you know that only you are the reason there is an issue.
Oh, how I wish there was not a limit as to what types of treatments can be done or there would be a better way of having a higher success rate for a treatment.
Oh, how I wish that the nausea, mood swings, headaches, body aches, and insomnia, or excessive exhaustion were due to a pregnancy and not to incessant medications and treatments that seem to lead to nowhere.
Oh, how I wish I the money we are spending monthly could be spent towards setting up a nursery, buying clothes for a new little one, etc. instead of medical bills that are not producing positive results.
Oh, how I wish this myth was true!
To learn more about Infertility and how to help those dealing with this condition, please visit: http://www.resolve.org/infertility101
Also to learn more about why I am writing such posts, please visit http://www.resolve.org/takecharge to see what measures are being taken to help educate people regarding this disease during National Infertility Awareness Week. (And yes, it is classified as a disease.)
Busting An Infertility Myth
Myth: IUI and Other Fertility Treatments Are Covered By Insurance
Excuse me as I hysterically laugh out loud hearing this. Let me explain.
You see due to the health problems that I experienced while pregnant, my doctor asked that my husband and I wait until our son was at least a year old to give my body a chance to recover. She also recommended that I lose weight as well. And I did . . . both of them!
After no success for a couple of months, we began infertility treatments again. I didn’t worry too much. We were able to get pregnant after a Hysterosolpingogram (HSG scan) and one IUI. Plus the insurance covered part of the HSG scan, the follicle scan, and the HCG injection, so there was not too much in regards to out of pocket expenses. However, this time . . . NADA! In fact when I called them to ask why, the person I talked to on the phone was extremely rude and let me know that the previous time was an error on their part and it would “NEVER, AND I MEAN NEVER, HAPPEN AGAIN.” Yeah, I tried talking to someone higher up and just got a “form letter” stating what their policies are, what our plan covers, and a ‘sucks to be you’ response.
The real kicker is that our insurance company will pay for certain tests to determine if you are infertile. But once you get that diagnosis, you can forget them paying for ANYTHING remotely construed to be infertility related.
If things went like last time, it wouldn’t be too awful financially. Instead we have just finished round five, with entirely everything out of pocket and still no success. Since our insurance is so “fabulous”, we easily rack up a $1000/month in bills all for a hope, a dream, that I can’t help but feel rapidly slip away.
I have to admit there are times that it is difficult to spend the large amounts of money every single month, to only result in a “failure.” It is hard not to be bitter or angry. To not feel that I have done nothing more than each month take $1000 and just thrown it away in the trash. This is especially the case when there are so many other places I can see us putting the money that I know I have control over and will produce the result I want.
So please, excuse me while I laugh at this myth. I could really use the chuckle.
To find out more about infertility and/or how to talk with someone who is currently struggling with this condition, please visit: http://www.resolve.org/infertility101
To learn more about National Infertility Awareness Week, please visit: http://www.resolve.org/takecharge
Excuse me as I hysterically laugh out loud hearing this. Let me explain.
You see due to the health problems that I experienced while pregnant, my doctor asked that my husband and I wait until our son was at least a year old to give my body a chance to recover. She also recommended that I lose weight as well. And I did . . . both of them!
After no success for a couple of months, we began infertility treatments again. I didn’t worry too much. We were able to get pregnant after a Hysterosolpingogram (HSG scan) and one IUI. Plus the insurance covered part of the HSG scan, the follicle scan, and the HCG injection, so there was not too much in regards to out of pocket expenses. However, this time . . . NADA! In fact when I called them to ask why, the person I talked to on the phone was extremely rude and let me know that the previous time was an error on their part and it would “NEVER, AND I MEAN NEVER, HAPPEN AGAIN.” Yeah, I tried talking to someone higher up and just got a “form letter” stating what their policies are, what our plan covers, and a ‘sucks to be you’ response.
The real kicker is that our insurance company will pay for certain tests to determine if you are infertile. But once you get that diagnosis, you can forget them paying for ANYTHING remotely construed to be infertility related.
If things went like last time, it wouldn’t be too awful financially. Instead we have just finished round five, with entirely everything out of pocket and still no success. Since our insurance is so “fabulous”, we easily rack up a $1000/month in bills all for a hope, a dream, that I can’t help but feel rapidly slip away.
I have to admit there are times that it is difficult to spend the large amounts of money every single month, to only result in a “failure.” It is hard not to be bitter or angry. To not feel that I have done nothing more than each month take $1000 and just thrown it away in the trash. This is especially the case when there are so many other places I can see us putting the money that I know I have control over and will produce the result I want.
So please, excuse me while I laugh at this myth. I could really use the chuckle.
To find out more about infertility and/or how to talk with someone who is currently struggling with this condition, please visit: http://www.resolve.org/infertility101
To learn more about National Infertility Awareness Week, please visit: http://www.resolve.org/takecharge
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Boys Night Out! (Mom's Spa Night)
While I truly love my little one, I have to admit there are days that can be trying. This is especially the case now that he has reached full-blown toddler stage. We spend a lot of time together, Little Man and I, since Daddy is at work/school/studying a lot of the time. Consequently, when Daddy comes home from work, he is definitely the "favored" parent, which I am completely okay with. In fact I enjoy it, because I get a little space to get some things done that an extremely active and inquisitive toddler does not allow.
Tonight my husband wanted to go out for dinner, and today had been "one of those days". I explained that truly all I wanted was to take a bubble bath, shave my legs (which were rapidly reaching Sasquatch level), and just relax since I had been running all day. Instead I proposed that he and Little Man have a boys night out and go to dinner and leave me home.
My husband was shocked I would make such a suggestion and asked repeatedly if it truly was okay with me, to which I laughed hysterically and said, "Please!" He just couldn't believe it and even asked if I was kidding or if this was an "evil woman mind trick" and I would secretly really be mad and hold a grudge. NOPE! "Go with my blessing. Please!"
So out the door they went and to a lovely bubble bath I headed. It was heavenly. I feel so relaxed and definitely became human again. I even got to start a load of laundry, get on the computer, and clean up the kitchen from lunch. (Like I said, it's been "one of those days.")
It's amazing what just a couple of hours of silence and alone time can do. I wonder if I can somehow make this a weekly tradition. hmmmmmmmmm . . . . . . . . . .
Tonight my husband wanted to go out for dinner, and today had been "one of those days". I explained that truly all I wanted was to take a bubble bath, shave my legs (which were rapidly reaching Sasquatch level), and just relax since I had been running all day. Instead I proposed that he and Little Man have a boys night out and go to dinner and leave me home.
My husband was shocked I would make such a suggestion and asked repeatedly if it truly was okay with me, to which I laughed hysterically and said, "Please!" He just couldn't believe it and even asked if I was kidding or if this was an "evil woman mind trick" and I would secretly really be mad and hold a grudge. NOPE! "Go with my blessing. Please!"
So out the door they went and to a lovely bubble bath I headed. It was heavenly. I feel so relaxed and definitely became human again. I even got to start a load of laundry, get on the computer, and clean up the kitchen from lunch. (Like I said, it's been "one of those days.")
It's amazing what just a couple of hours of silence and alone time can do. I wonder if I can somehow make this a weekly tradition. hmmmmmmmmm . . . . . . . . . .
A Light! A Light!
Today my hubby submitted his official application for graduation. It's real! It is really going to happen! He will then have his Master's in Nuclear Engineering and his crit safety certification. (Don't ask me what that is. I have no idea. I just know he REALLY, REALLY wants it.) Now we just need to make it to the end of next month! :)
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Things That Make Me Happy
Here are a few things that make me happy, because they indicate warmer weather is coming:
The animals in the petting zoo were a little skiddish after having a winter off from people being around them. These poor deer were completely overwhelmed by the little kids running around trying to pet them.
Grow little seedlings, grow! I figure if for whatever reason I can't be in partnership with God to create any further human life, I might as well be in partnership to create plant life. Not only do I enjoy working in the dirt, but also enjoy knowing where my food is coming from and the taste of it all. I also like knowing that I help with the family budget a little as well. Hopefully, this year will be better than last year! I have the entire garden planted except tomotatoes. (Don't ask me how I missed buying those seeds. grrrrrrr) Those I'll get to this weekend and then it just a matter of sitting and waiting.
We went to Bear World for their opening day and got to pet baby bears. They were adorable!
The animals in the petting zoo were a little skiddish after having a winter off from people being around them. These poor deer were completely overwhelmed by the little kids running around trying to pet them.
Grow little seedlings, grow! I figure if for whatever reason I can't be in partnership with God to create any further human life, I might as well be in partnership to create plant life. Not only do I enjoy working in the dirt, but also enjoy knowing where my food is coming from and the taste of it all. I also like knowing that I help with the family budget a little as well. Hopefully, this year will be better than last year! I have the entire garden planted except tomotatoes. (Don't ask me how I missed buying those seeds. grrrrrrr) Those I'll get to this weekend and then it just a matter of sitting and waiting.
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