Have you ever just had one of those days that the more you try to get on top of things, the faster time goes, and how less time there is? I have been having those moments this weekend.
I look at other people's blogs and their day-to-day achievements and just sigh. For example:
Heidi Vawdrey - She is one of those women that I call SUPERWOMAN! She works part-time as a nurse, cooks amazing meals that she makes up herself, runs almost daily (including half-marathon races), and raises her children.
Jaylene - Makes wonderful things for her family and does all of kind of cute things with her kids.
Tina - Has done an amazing job overcoming a horrible time in her life and does a great job in mothering her children in her blended family.
When I decided to stay home, I thought I would have so much more time to do things, but feel like lately I have more to do then I did when I was working full-time. With CFS and Fibromyalgia there are days that even getting out of bed is such a chore, and the thoughts of adding children to that mix just makes me shutter. This is why I am in awe of these women. They do it all! I know, I know, I have my own talents and strengths. I just am having one of those moments where I get frustrated by my own limitations. I remember when I just would go and go and go and never think twice about it. Patience is NOT one of my virtues so I truly believe that this is Heavenly Father's way of teaching me patience and to take time to smell the roses whether I like it or not. Some days I like it and some days not!
I have found myself listening to Michael McLean's "This Day is One of Those." You've gotta love music! It's all good. I just need to remember to live in the moment and not dwell on what is undone. Baby steps, Adrienne, baby steps.
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I think that reading blogs can be depressing too. I feel inadequate when I read my friend Marnie's or my Cousin Jennifer's or my sister Lorinda's. I always think, 'I should be doing more with my kids'. Thanks for the compliment!! And you are WONDERFUL!!
And here I sit at 10:00 a.m. still not showered with a stack of bills and other stuff to file that's 6 inches tall...I'm far from perfect, trust me. I was a crabby woman this weekend. Pouty that Alan went camping without me. Grumpy at having to wrangle the kids all the way through church by myself on top of leading the music (with sad baby on one hip) and teaching primary to a wiggly class.
I do a lot of things with my kids because I can. During my pregnancies I turn into a big ol' lump of nothing fun. Last summer was crummy. This summer we've been plagued by Alan's back problems, so I've been trying doubly hard to find things to do with the kids either while he's at work or else scale them down to something he can handle when he is home. We all do what we can do. Just do your best. (And show me how to do some fondant magic next time you're in town - the first time I worked with it, it was pretty good. The next time it was stiff and cracky. I haven't tried any more since.)
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